Monthly Archives: March 2012

Merging Realities: Don’t Dream It, Be It


What have I been up to lately? Working on merging my realities. I hate that I have to leave them in their neat little bubbles. Life is an amalgamation. And I am the product of my fantasies.

Over the years, I have played many role-playing games, and created many characters. And the more time I spent with those characters, the more I began to bond with them. I became them. They became me.

And as games go, their stories had to end, or otherwise be cut short, and a great part of me was lost into a virtual oblivion.

But today, I am pleased to share with you, all was not for naught. Rather, in recent years, those realities have slowly begun to emerge from within. I carry with me now the seeds of those lives I lived throughout my external life. Seeds that have begun to germinate, and develop deep roots within my psyche. I am now manifesting as the compilation of many characters. Characters with qualities that inspired me no longer to play their lives, but to live them out, as only I could.

For a long time, I have held the philosophy: If you enjoy what you do in a game, you should be able to enjoy it in the real world; Parkour, Mountain Climbing, Desert Hiking, Pistol Shooting, and Archery among them. And as far as I see it, the only thing that keeps others from doing these things is the fear of death or injury.

But I am not afraid of death anymore — am I? No, I have what some have described as a death wish; what I have come to believe as the acceptance of mortality, or lack thereof. Honestly, I don’t see any reason I shouldn’t live forever. Certainly I have come close enough that the only justification for why I am still here is nothing short of divine intervention — or something to that effect.

That being said, I have all eternity to live out my dreams — my body acting as the medium for desperate fantasies seeking a way out into this universe  — and all that I ask for is a partner; a witness to these whims, as they channel through me.

Every Doctor needs his companion. I need a close friend to share these dreams with, that they might be remembered and made immortal as the inspiration of another’s life. Surely that’s not too much to ask for a lifetime of adventure, now is it?